THE CHRONICLES OF A HEARTBREAK: "eating my feelings"

Photographer: Tony Lapid

Model: Ancho Poncho

Makeup Artist: Jeralen Mascarinas
Designer, Hairstylist, Story, Set Decorator: ME!

Cupcakes: My little brother Jeffrey

Dealing with your feelings... People channel their feelings into all kinds of venues to help them cope with their broken heart. Some people go on major shopping sprees, do self-makeovers, get into rebound relationships, starving themselves, binging, drugs and alcohol... The list goes on. All of these may feel great at first, but they are only temporary fixes.

You try to fill the void with something else. At first you are able to numb out reality with it. The pain at that point is no longer screaming, but just a distant muffled cry. You are elated that you are able to trick your heart out of being hurt. But overtime, and pretty quickly, that eventually doesn't do it anymore. Nothing is able to mask the pain, but you try to do it anyways and do it with exaggerated efforts. You become so desperate to be free of this agony. You start unraveling, falling apart all over again. You see it happening, but you are unable to stop, because you want the pain to stop. You begin to slowly deteriorate... you begin to slowly die.

Hairstyle:

I applied a little bit of REDKIN styling paste through out her hair and pulled it into a high ponytail. I also left out a 3inch by 3 inch section of her bangs. I wrapped synthetic braiding hair around her ponytail to create volume in her bun. I applied some HERBAL ESSENCE flexible bamboo hairspray onto her real hair and teased like crazy. I smoothed it out a little and tucked the hair around the synthetic hair. And for her bangs, i teased this as well and rolled and tucked it back as well. I randomly pulled out pieces to make her a little disheveled.

Dress and Style:

I made this the same morning of the shoot. I created three different looks with this dress already. this was the 4h variation. I will be featuring all the dress sided by side later on. But I wanted to create wedding dress that was fun and flirty. So I hacked the mermaid dress and reattached the bottom to the waist line instead. I took the organza flowers that were originally along the bottom hem line and used it as a strap instead. I paired the dress with some colorful floral tights to play down the severity of a wedding dress. I also spray painted some shoes a flourecent pink and white paint splatters to give it a little more edge.

the series: THE CHRONICLES OF A HEARTBREAK

Please stay tuned. I am currently putting together my new series called the, "THE CHRONICLES OF A HEARTBREAK." It's going to be a collection designed around the pain that love can cause at times. It is gonna be one of my most extensive work. What's the inspiration: misunderstandings, anger, lies, hurt, and love of course.

love,
bobbie

sneak peak of my crazy collaboration!

I got a chance to work with the amazing photographer; Kwesi Abbensetts, make-up artist; Andrew Jackson and also jewelry extraordinaire; Ancho Poncho!!!! And you know LIPS and Miss Shana Barnes did there thing right here!!! Here is a sneak peak of the magic that happened on this Tar Beach Shoot.

chasing after your ghost

Photography: Bousa Concepts

Editing: Abel Del Rio

Dress and Hair: Bobbie Yanoupeth
Model: La Chica Boom

Going through a breakup, is like grieving after a death. Something that you love so much, something you completely and whole heartedly devoted your life to, is no longer there. You feel cheated by time and as if life is one big bad patrical joke. Regardless of who broke it off, the pain is excruciating still.

I think there hasn't been a day yet that I haven't cried, and a single night that you haven't visited my dreams. People have told me to let the old memories lie in their place. To leave them barried deep in the back of my mind. It's dangerous to resurrect those feelings once the relationship is gone, because it will never rest in peace and constantly haunt you. And can I afford to keep feeling this pain? If the closest I can get to being with you again is remembering you, then I will continue. I will keep chasing your ghost till I find you again.

Behind The Scenes...

The final picture is what most people gets to see. The perfect lighting, the gorgeous gowns, the flawless makeup, and the crazy hair. But

rarely do people get a glimpse of the chaotic efforts put forth the create these glossy images.

That's like everything else in life I guess. We work so hard to build this facade and play out this life that we want people to believe we live. Sometimes you have to wonder if it's worth all the stress.

The Shoot:
I got a chance to team up with Bousa Concepts again... which means FANTABULOUSNESS!!! Getting to the shoot, wasn't so amazing. LOL! The dress didn't fit miss LaChicaBoom cause this Latina has curves, which resulted in a broken zipper and ripped linings. The drive to the site, was 2 hours in nasty heat. And to get to the cemetery, meant a steep dirt path hike, and weaving in and out between cows. Here is a little look behind the scenes... wait for the actual picture, which will be coming soon.

The final picture is what most people gets to see. The perfect lighting, the gorgeous gowns, the flawless makeup, and the crazy hair. But rarely do people get a glimpse of the chaotic efforts put forth the create these glossy images.

That's like everything else in life I guess. We work so hard to build this facade and play out this life that we want people to believe we live. Sometimes you have to wonder if it's worth all the stress.

The Shoot:
I got a chance to team up with Bousa Concepts again... which means FANTABULOUSNESS!!! Getting to the shoot, wasn't so amazing. LOL! The dress didn't fit miss LaChicaBoom cause this Latina has curves, which resulted in a broken zipper and ripped linings. The drive to the site, was 2 hours in nasty heat. And to get to the cemetery, meant a steep dirt path hike, and weaving in and out between cows. Here is a little look behind the scenes... wait for the actual picture, which will be coming soon.

living

Photographer: Kwesi Abbensetts

Designer: Sarah Williams

The hardest part in life... is living!

We get so overwhelmed with our day to day routines and it's so easy to let yourself slip and drown in misery. The pain fills your lungs and your limbs start to numb, inch by inch. The world darkens with each passing minute.

Before you lose complete sight of your life, remember that their is always hope for tomorrow and may that be enough to awaken your soul.

Hairstyle:

During this time and age of "Rihanna" and "Cassie" hairstyles, it was sooooo hard to do side fishtail braids. lol!!!! I had to get creative and throw some extensions in there and create an illusion of full and tossled hair with a side braid.

bousa concepts

right after our shoot and before the glitter...

tah-dah!!!

the model is my photographer: Bousa!

photographer: Bobbie Yanoupeth

I totally forgot that while I was in California last time, not only did I collaborate on photo shoot with Bousa, I also cut her hair and gave her a little face time!!!!

Bousa and I worked together back in February on "The Little Black Sheep" and "Super Kawaii" shoot. From the moment the cameras started snapping, I knew that she totally understood me. She is such a hard worker and so detail oriented. Her personal aesthetic is anything but ordinary. She worked it out for me. The final product was amazing. And fortunately, I am gonna be back in the bay at the end of this month and we will be working with her again!!!! So please stay tuned!

Hairstyle:
I hacked off like 5inches of her hair. I made sure to slightly angle the hair forward as I was cutting the front pieces. The trick to the look and to give her more of an edge, I got crazy with the layers!!! I did a slide cutting technique, which is similar to using a razor. I pulled hair from the back of her crown forward and layered them into her bangs as well. I swept the hair in both directions as I was making her side swoop because I wanted to make sure that she was able to change the look and not give her a definite part.
I applied some Artec Texture Line BeachCream and blew the hair dry. I then took some pomade as well and scrunched the hair.

i remember being a little girl once

rockstar before!

queen of the candyland kingdom after!

I have been meaning to do a kids edition forever. Originally I wanted to do a group of girls, but I never got around to it. But it just so happen that I needed to babysit Hennessey last minute and she asked for a photo session. She said that she wanted to be featured on here. LOL. So we played dress up and dipped into grown women stuff. She is really cute! and Sassy!

It's funny how we were so desperate to grow up when we were kids. Playing "grown-up" and wearing our parents clothing. I remember wearing my momma's dress, heels, blush and lipstick to walk around the block as a youngster. Hoping that I looked older and more mature.

But now as we are older, we are desperately trying to reverse time and regain our youth. The beauty industry has monopolized on our insecurities and even help create new ones. With photoshopped photos of flawless women and men being fed to us daily, we are led to believe that this is how we should look, and for a small price, we too can look as beautiful.

According to a report released by the YWCA called "Beauty at Any Cost," American women spend about $7billion dollars annually on beauty products. Which equates to $100 monthly for each women in the states! This total doesn't even include how much is spent on cosmetic surgery. Isn't is crazy? I rarely have that much to save a month.

Sad..

Photoshoot:
Pink is her color, thank GOD, cause I just happened to have hella pink stuff lying around my apartment. I decided that we were gonna give her a Candyland theme and that she ruled this candy kingdom. LOL! I also decided that her look would be a play on little girls being cute and dabbling in their momma's thangs! Basically, she was me at 6!

Hairstyle:
I slicked it into a tight ponytail with some gel. I then applied mouse through out her ponytail and curled strands with a 1/2 inch curling iron. You should form some sort of strong foundation so you can stack the curls on top of so it securely. I make almost a bunk-like thing of pin-curls, then I roll and tuck curls randomly through out over that. Letting some hang and so forth, you are the creator and do it based off of your personal aesthetic. And of course, make sure to spray that bad boy down, especially with the children, they like to fuss and do all kinds of madness.

SHE IS TOO FIERCE!

I blogged about her below, but didn't post a pic of her. Here she is with me from this past Friday night at Machine. She was everything!!!!!!

Don't act like you don't know who Miss JujuBee is. Please vote for her! #realityJUJUBEE

love is blooming all over!

Photographer: Jeffrey Zhang
Stylists: Stephanie Wu and Alexander Liang
Hair: Bobbie Yanoupeth
Makeup: Giro Iriarte
Models: Kevin Paik, Graziella Barrette, Mwaji the dog

I was out last night in Boston celebrating Laos New Years with my sistas and was sooooo happy to see Miss JujuBee as well!!!!!!! She was so amazing. I now understand what Rupaul was referring to when she told Miss JujuBee that she was a special queen... You can just feel it in her presence. I am not gassing her up because she is Laotian (but that is a plus cause she is representing our folks real well and btw we normally say that we are Laos and the "S" is silent), but she is honestly the most humble, sweet, and gorgeous person I have ever met.

In the chaos of the club and use taking pics with her, she didn't forget her boyfriend. She even made sure to introduce him to us as well. And what inspired this posting, other than her, is the love that the two have. She loves her man, and he definitely adores her. Their body language, their stares, the way he smiled as he watched her be greeted by her fans, it was sooo cute and contagious even! We were left wanting that same love. LOL!

It is spring girls, and we are all clutching our pearls, hoping that Mr. Right is gonna be coming along...

Which brings me to Mochi Magazine. I had the honor to collaborate with this online based magazine for their spring issue. The story was about spring, romance and love, in life and in your wardrobe. If you are not up on it, you gottta be. This magazine was created to give Asian American teenage girls a positive resource for beauty and fashion. There is a lack of representation of Asians on the silver screen and in the glossy pages of major publications, so Mochi Magazine is trying to shed some light on our community by addressing beauty and cultural identity issue that affects us. Please click here for more MOCHI!!!

Hairstyle:

I pin curled her hair. That's it really. Just make sure to use a 1 1/2 in barrel and curl the hair away from her face. I sprayed her down and teased a bit. But to give it different looks throughout the day, I threw in a quick braid across, I clipped it with some pins in the center, and I even pulled it back into a messy bun, pinning it variously and leaving some pieces straggly.