THE CHRONICLES OF A HEARTBREAK: "hope as ammunition"

Photographer: ME

Hairstylist, Make-up Artist, Story: ME

Shoe Designer: ME

Model: Laura Andrighetti

Having hope is one of the most beautiful abilities in life. The trick to it, is giving up on hope in certain situations, or else it just becomes a pointless war.

You have been fighting a battle that has already been lost. Alliances were formed before you even entered the war. Knowing all of this, your heart convinces you to keep fighting. That if you love something that much and want it so bad, you have to hold onto it until your final breath.

Inexperienced to these war tactics, you had allowed yourself to be oblivious and blinded by love, skewing your perception of reality. You knew the truth, you felt it pierce though your heart time and time again, but your mind refused to acknowledge the large cavities in your chest. Instead, you fought back even harder, loved even harder; loving with every ounce of your soul, loving innocently and purely. You had suffered too many casualties but yet continued to give your trust unconditionally; hoping that this would win your war… but only left you naked and vulnerable in the middle of the battlefield. It was finally time to wave that white flag.

Even after the battle, you still deal from post-traumatic heartbreak syndrome. In your head... You had planted beautiful dreams, as they had planted beautiful lies; like land minds. As you are walking through these memories, the bombs continue to go off, you continue to suffer. You were ill equipped for this war, hope was never enough ammunition and still not at the end.

THE CHRONICLES OF A HEARTBREAK: "dancing with destruction"

Photographer: Tony Lapid
Makeup Artist: Jeralen Mascarinas
Hairstylist, Story, and Stylist: ME
Designer: Jeffrey Norsouvanh (my little brother)
Model: Annie Choi

You have been in many productions, danced with many partners, and some have been better than others. Needless to say, you have always put on a strong face, given every show your all, and danced till the curtains fell. Knowing that you especially put your blood, sweat, heart, and tears in this last dance; the reviews came back, one in particular, slamming you for your performance still. How do you digest that?

You are sitting in your dressing room, feeling like all your work was in vain. You are staring at your last pair of ballet slippers which you have hung up. The ribbons are tattered up by time, the points shredded by compromise and the pink satin is soiled by your bleeding heart. Your feet are calloused by broken promises and deception. You see the evidence that you have danced with all your might, but the only thing that stands in front of this truth, is the bold letters in that review; that you didn’t dance hard enough.

It’s absurd what has been said about you. You could have been dancing on top of water and this critic still wouldn’t have thought it were enough. But you feed into this and want to give up. You don’t want to dance anymore. The next partner you are willing to dance with at this point, is death.

The pain has become that unbearable. You loved this dance more than life itself… this dance became your life. But remember, that it is only one critic, one review. Don’t let them take away from your work. The audience gave you a standing ovation at the end and the applause are still lingering. That is a testament to who you are. You must not let one critic stand in your way, when the world knows it and you know it, that this was one of your greatest efforts.

THE CHRONICLES OF A HEARTBREAK: "eating my feelings"

Photographer: Tony Lapid

Model: Ancho Poncho

Makeup Artist: Jeralen Mascarinas
Designer, Hairstylist, Story, Set Decorator: ME!

Cupcakes: My little brother Jeffrey

Dealing with your feelings... People channel their feelings into all kinds of venues to help them cope with their broken heart. Some people go on major shopping sprees, do self-makeovers, get into rebound relationships, starving themselves, binging, drugs and alcohol... The list goes on. All of these may feel great at first, but they are only temporary fixes.

You try to fill the void with something else. At first you are able to numb out reality with it. The pain at that point is no longer screaming, but just a distant muffled cry. You are elated that you are able to trick your heart out of being hurt. But overtime, and pretty quickly, that eventually doesn't do it anymore. Nothing is able to mask the pain, but you try to do it anyways and do it with exaggerated efforts. You become so desperate to be free of this agony. You start unraveling, falling apart all over again. You see it happening, but you are unable to stop, because you want the pain to stop. You begin to slowly deteriorate... you begin to slowly die.

Hairstyle:

I applied a little bit of REDKIN styling paste through out her hair and pulled it into a high ponytail. I also left out a 3inch by 3 inch section of her bangs. I wrapped synthetic braiding hair around her ponytail to create volume in her bun. I applied some HERBAL ESSENCE flexible bamboo hairspray onto her real hair and teased like crazy. I smoothed it out a little and tucked the hair around the synthetic hair. And for her bangs, i teased this as well and rolled and tucked it back as well. I randomly pulled out pieces to make her a little disheveled.

Dress and Style:

I made this the same morning of the shoot. I created three different looks with this dress already. this was the 4h variation. I will be featuring all the dress sided by side later on. But I wanted to create wedding dress that was fun and flirty. So I hacked the mermaid dress and reattached the bottom to the waist line instead. I took the organza flowers that were originally along the bottom hem line and used it as a strap instead. I paired the dress with some colorful floral tights to play down the severity of a wedding dress. I also spray painted some shoes a flourecent pink and white paint splatters to give it a little more edge.

the series: THE CHRONICLES OF A HEARTBREAK

Please stay tuned. I am currently putting together my new series called the, "THE CHRONICLES OF A HEARTBREAK." It's going to be a collection designed around the pain that love can cause at times. It is gonna be one of my most extensive work. What's the inspiration: misunderstandings, anger, lies, hurt, and love of course.

love,
bobbie

sneak peak of my crazy collaboration!

I got a chance to work with the amazing photographer; Kwesi Abbensetts, make-up artist; Andrew Jackson and also jewelry extraordinaire; Ancho Poncho!!!! And you know LIPS and Miss Shana Barnes did there thing right here!!! Here is a sneak peak of the magic that happened on this Tar Beach Shoot.

chasing after your ghost

Photography: Bousa Concepts

Editing: Abel Del Rio

Dress and Hair: Bobbie Yanoupeth
Model: La Chica Boom

Going through a breakup, is like grieving after a death. Something that you love so much, something you completely and whole heartedly devoted your life to, is no longer there. You feel cheated by time and as if life is one big bad patrical joke. Regardless of who broke it off, the pain is excruciating still.

I think there hasn't been a day yet that I haven't cried, and a single night that you haven't visited my dreams. People have told me to let the old memories lie in their place. To leave them barried deep in the back of my mind. It's dangerous to resurrect those feelings once the relationship is gone, because it will never rest in peace and constantly haunt you. And can I afford to keep feeling this pain? If the closest I can get to being with you again is remembering you, then I will continue. I will keep chasing your ghost till I find you again.

Behind The Scenes...

The final picture is what most people gets to see. The perfect lighting, the gorgeous gowns, the flawless makeup, and the crazy hair. But

rarely do people get a glimpse of the chaotic efforts put forth the create these glossy images.

That's like everything else in life I guess. We work so hard to build this facade and play out this life that we want people to believe we live. Sometimes you have to wonder if it's worth all the stress.

The Shoot:
I got a chance to team up with Bousa Concepts again... which means FANTABULOUSNESS!!! Getting to the shoot, wasn't so amazing. LOL! The dress didn't fit miss LaChicaBoom cause this Latina has curves, which resulted in a broken zipper and ripped linings. The drive to the site, was 2 hours in nasty heat. And to get to the cemetery, meant a steep dirt path hike, and weaving in and out between cows. Here is a little look behind the scenes... wait for the actual picture, which will be coming soon.

The final picture is what most people gets to see. The perfect lighting, the gorgeous gowns, the flawless makeup, and the crazy hair. But rarely do people get a glimpse of the chaotic efforts put forth the create these glossy images.

That's like everything else in life I guess. We work so hard to build this facade and play out this life that we want people to believe we live. Sometimes you have to wonder if it's worth all the stress.

The Shoot:
I got a chance to team up with Bousa Concepts again... which means FANTABULOUSNESS!!! Getting to the shoot, wasn't so amazing. LOL! The dress didn't fit miss LaChicaBoom cause this Latina has curves, which resulted in a broken zipper and ripped linings. The drive to the site, was 2 hours in nasty heat. And to get to the cemetery, meant a steep dirt path hike, and weaving in and out between cows. Here is a little look behind the scenes... wait for the actual picture, which will be coming soon.